So I’m at the gym and generally the gym is my outlet for minor stress, anger, major stress etc. I use my stress and anger to fuel my workouts and by the end, I feel like a new person. But today, I feel like ranting. And yes, I’m on the stationary bike as I type this so it probably won’t make much sense.
Start Rant: It doesn’t take much to be a decent person in this world. For real. Check in with your friends regularly, check up on them when they’re feeling down. Be there for someone who needs you. Offer a helping hand or a listening ear. Help put a coworker with someone who is being difficult or when they’re stuck. And be there. I mean really be there. Don’t say you’re going to do something and not do it. It’s disrespectful.
I think that’s one of my biggest pet peeves: when people say they’re going to do something and don’t follow through. Maybe it’s my “divorced child syndrome,” you know, parents get divorced when you’re younger and then you’re left “damaged” from the whole thing. At least that’s what people tell me. That my parents divorce caused me attachment and trust issues. But I think that’s pretty common so whatever. Anyways! It really bugs me when people don’t follow through with what they say. And I’m guilty of it too, honestly. But it doesn’t happen often and I feel like an awful person when I can’t follow through for whatever reason.
Maybe that’s why I have very few friends. I have little tolerance for two-faced people or people who turn around and stab you in the back, be it intentionally or unintentionally. So sooner or later I just kind of fade myself out of their lives. And frankly, 99% of the time no one notices. But that’s okay, really. It just means that person wasn’t worth my time or worthy of the trust to be in my life.
Lately I feel like people have just been walking all over me, stabbing me in the back even when I hold up loyalty on my end and overall, being mean people. For real, there’s no need to bring me down, bully me or try to hurt me just because you’re jealous or insecure or whatever. Usually I try not to let people bug me but this week has been a train wreck at work and my guard has been down in all aspects of my life.
Except for with hubs, because my guard is always down with him. Thankfully he’s been one of the only people I can continually count on for love, support and laughter. Though we haven’t been married very long based on societal standards, he always makes me feel like we’ve been together for a lifetime. And that my friends, is the kind of love and companionship that matters. End. Rant.